Speaking of milk. I have been pumping and doing much better than I did with Rhiannon and Konnor. Until today. Yesterday I got engorged and got a lot out. Then in the middle of the night last night I only got a total of 15ml, if that. And so far today I didn't get any at all. It is also starting to hurt really bad. Also, if I can be completely honest, I have been going nuts with all this pumping. First it's a pain just doing it every 3hrs or so, it feels like I'm always doing it. And sometimes I wish I could just stop doing it. But then thinking that makes me feel really bad, like I'm a bad mom, because it's the only thing I can do for my girls right now - even thought it doesn't feel like it's even for them at all. So I feel extremely bad right now. I am still pumping hoping it will pick up again.. but I don't know if it will.
I got to hold Lorelei for the first time on July 24. I was so happy. The other day I also got to hold Ainsley skin-to-skin for 2hrs. And last night Brian held Lorelei for the first time also. That was the first time he got to hold either one of them.